Random Thoughts (12/20/25)

So, I've come to realize something terrifying, and that's the idea that I could just disappear one day for reasons outside of my own control, and people will just forget about the things I've said, and the works I've made. How do I preserve it? I think I know a way. 

 

If I do disappear for any reason, like, for real disappear with no chance of returning, then I think the only way for my works and my words to be preserved is through others archiving them in my place. ...But, I don't really have enough of a following for that, do I?

 

They want trans people like me gone, and they want our lives works, our words, or even memories of us, erased. You probably know who "they" are. That's why I have to have faith in my fellow human beings, that my passion cannot be extinguished along with me. 

 

So please, this is one of my biggest wishes. Don't let my works disappear if I myself get disappeared for sticking out too much. The idea of that happening is too much for me to bear. 

 

-Zoey Baugher (Auragirl111)

Random Pointless Post (12/13/25)

One day, I'm going to write what I want to write, and not just go along with my headmate Mari recycling my old ideas. This will happen someday. I just need to come up with new ideas first! Ah, who am I kidding? That'll never happen, probably. Maybe I should just watch more anime and hope a new idea comes to me randomly. 

I'm glad Mari can still keep going though, even if she keeps getting on me for watching stuff from different genres than she enjoys. Guess what? Both me and you watch anime, Mari, so they probably see us as the same anyways! My love for magical girls on the side isn't hurting our creations! It hasn't even really bled into the major two series, so you're very clearly overreacting!

I want to have more friends in my real life who I can share my passions with, but no one seems to give me the time of day. I can't even watch anything with anyone anymore like I did back in 2020-2021, or 2023! It's too boring! That's what I get for being a shut-in NEET weeaboo that can't make anything or do anything worth talking about. I hardly even game anymore!

There is no purpose to this post, I just felt like typing a post of thoughts I'm having. 

-Zoey Baugher (Auragirl111)